Is it just because I feel too unappreciated nowadays. With the new company structure and all, plus the tension and anticipation of such things as moving to another branch - the fact that I'm not holding on to anything to prove it's materialization - makes me wanna spill my guts - just spoils whatever cup of tea can be dished out - just spoils any effort I exert for what purpose.
The only fuel for my drive nowadays is my family. Well, they have always been; but they become more of a cure for me at the end of the day. My kids, they drive me nuts when I'm home; but am still crazy over them and still am very proud to have such bright little joys. My main Joy, my love - what can I say, we have our ups and downs; but we always turn out to be on the ups so very often. Their the only thing that's keeping me from totally letting go of this cycle.
Is it just me or has the world outside my family turned against me? How can I replenish my hunger for achievement, when nothing seems to be achievable? How can I learn to appreciate such small things as helping others, when I myself can't be helped to be appreciated?
Ah what a life, my life nowadays!!!